Wednesday, July 6, 2016

update on the almost-five-year-old

Oh, EZ. What a kid. I want to write about him so I don't forget about him at this age.

EZ is turning five this month and it's showing all over his body. He has these long lean legs and seems to be growing taller each month. His feet are starting to stink as well as his head from the sweat of his active life, and we try to bathe or at least wipe him down every night before bed but it's hard to keep up. He crashes hard around 7:30pm if he doesn't nap, and is still my best and most solid sleeper. He has taken to the top bunk well and uses a star wars blanket instead of his green baby blanket at night (but he keeps it nearby along with all of his 5 animals lined up very specifically in order each night.) He lives for structure with "plans" each day and doing the same types of repetitive things during bedtime. But he's also getting pretty good at adapting when we change plans or things don't go his way, at least when he's not overly tired or hungry. He is very kind and loving with Moses and is really trying to get along better with Sully, but iiiiiit's not always easy with a two year old (we're all feeling this one.) I find him saying stuff like "I like things clean and tidy!" and he is good at politely throwing up when he's car sick (which still happens every time we go to the mountain roads or even more.) He's also obsessed with shows and drives me insane with how often he asks for a show or when are we going to watch a show or how about after lunch or maybe while we're eating lunch or can we watch one when dad is home from work or just one before bed and on and on and on. He has no stopping point either, and he'll miss out on life because he just can't stope tuning in when any type of show is on.  I'm tempted to get rid of TV for a while because it seems to be creating poor habits in the kid, but then he whips out a song or a fact that he's learned from a show and maybe he actually loves them because he's learning and engaging, not just checking out. i think it'd still do us some good to quit them for a while, but one hard thing at a time (right now it's taking away sully's binkie, so everything else is out.) He has a sketchbook where Matt is trying to teach him about art & they occasionally have drawing nights, and every so often he pulls it out by himself and we are delighted by what he can draw & how much he remembers since he's not using references.  We've lost two pairs of glasses & he complains a lot about having to do things by himself (he's beyond social, so this being alone or cleaning alone or playing alone is sometimes a huge feat.) He always has something to say and usually reports to any person (adult or kid or man or woman or lamp post i swear) about the happenings of his life. We can sense he gives up easily when things are hard for him (like right now riding his bike with training wheels is harder than riding his scooter, so he always chooses the scooter because he's already good at it.) He still lives for playing with his cousins or friends and will eat anything i put in front of him (except basagna (lasagna) because he's "allergic" but really he just doesn't like it.) If i make anything into a game it'll go over better than asking him directly to do something, and if we add a story into it all the better. He can carry a tune and has a sweet little voice, and remembers songs well & often repeats Daniel the Tiger songs when we're doing the activity that was sung about. He's trying to tell more jokes but doesn't quite grasp how they work, but that does not stop him from trying! He always asks for the "I hate to leave you" song each night and I love that he came up with the name himself for that particular one. He does not like the dark and has up to three night lights in his room, and will put his hands in his mouth or twist his shirt when he's nervous. He's stopped dressing up as much which we feel sad about, but it's not gone forever because he loves playing "family" and will still surprise us with plenty of great costume choices when he's really invested. He asked me to read a bunch of the information plaques at the Dino museum the other day, which is a first since we've been going there (he usually is just there for the play stuff, but seems to be turning a corner on wanting more information lately.) He's confident and feels important and sometimes that makes him mean to other kids, but he's quick to apologize and is learning that he doesn't always need the biggest or first to feel his best. He loves to be carried to bed each night and still snuggles up close daily. He also lets us know when he's feeling sensitive (usually after he's gotten hurt) and when he needs to "take a rest" before he heads back into an activity. He went to rock climbing camp last week and loved it so much and keeps asking when we can go back. we're thinking of getting a pass just to have a fun family activity.

we love him so much. it's easy to get super frustrated with him because i expect so much from him, but he's such a big helper and brother and he's kind and funny and smart and clever and festive. oh man is he festive! he lives for a good celebration and life is a party with this kid around.

hiking EZ
ez with cousin katie at his rock climbing camp (on wacky hair wednesday!)
his cute freckled face (with an example of his cute wonky eye)
loving his baby Mosy & his mama  

hello there.

i have so much to write. out of love and devotion, but also because it's frightening how quickly i am forgetting the wonderfulness of life. moments so incredible how could i possibly ever forget them? and then a week goes by and i have thousands of other thoughts replacing the one before and i see even the best ones trying to escape me.

life basically consists of all-day adventures or never stepping foot out of the house. we're living in extremes because i've never been good at moderation, and it may be something that will pass on to our kids. i know how to pack my van and stay out for more than 10 hours and not have a single meltdown, and i also am learning when to call it quits when one of us needs to just go home. summer is breathing down it's hotness and we're mostly doing fine this year. I try one pool day a week and maybe a splashpad or park another day, and in between invite myself into the lives of my friends or family to spend days with people we like. we always feel best when we have a day with Matt around, but we're in a busy season again with freelance work (on top of regular work) and so we're taking it as it comes and not trying to force the togetherness.

when it's good, it's good. and when it's bad, it's bad. remember, not good at moderation.

we stay up too late to attempt a few minutes by ourselves, but then are tired the next day and the cycle perpetuates. i'm trying to get into yoga but it's slow and go. matt is in a good vibe with drawing & taking some online courses to keep it fresh. today Moses turned 5 months and i didn't even get a picture to celebrate his day (i'll do it tomorrow!) because that's what happens when you're the third kid. i did girl's camp a few weeks back and tomorrow i'm taking the activity days girls to a day camp, so even though i have three boys i'm still plenty involved with the girls. we sent sully's binky (boo!) away yesterday and it hasn't been the easiest, but slowly he's getting used to it "my boo?! is it wost?" it's tender and heartbreaking and we're glad it's been done even if it's hard. we lost another pair of glasses for ez, but he just got new ones and they're cute but heaven help us that we don't lose another.

most of my camera roll is of my kids smothering each other or partially clothed. they've started occasionally bathing together and it's so nice to have three nekked boys in tub. it's a good season of life with young kids clobbering us, and even when we have downer days or sad/mad/annoyed nights, it's all good. because really, it's all good.

here are two instas from this week to prove the goodness.

Zion NP in May

just some of my favorite pictures from our thorup family trip to Zion a few months ago. i have a ton of footage to make a video too, just need to sit down and find that elusive free time ;)

ez hiked every hike without being held (even the 3 miles round trip on emerald pools!) the boys used their cute new backpacks matt purchased them, moses was a dream baby and slept and cuddled and was sweet the whole time, and one highlight was when sully fell asleep in the stroller and we just carried it on the bus & he stayed asleep. we played games at night, watched wild hearts can't be broken (it holds up! still great you guys!), and even had a night time light saber battle. good times!

Sunday, June 5, 2016

Prince EZ's spring performance

EZ finished off a year at Clayton Production company with a spring performance as prince charming (although... they are pirate jake costumes because apparently prince ones were hard to find ha!) His Christmas performance was a good time, and this spring one has been fun too (although a lot of time, and we have decided not to do it again next year for now.) Grandparents & some cousins came to support some of the performances (thanks everyone!) and I'm pretty sure EZ's favorite part was how many times we went out to dinner or for ice cream afterwards. He crushed his final performance (wish I had video taped that one since it was a good one!) and then for the "Someday my Prince will come" song I went on stage with him and danced him around in a circle & he said that was his favorite part. He's a sweet kid & I'm glad he liked this program and we'll see what we decide to try next year! 

*make sure the video settings are up to 1080HD for best quality!*

a dinner picnic in may

I happened to have my camera sometime in the middle of May after one of EZ's performances, so when we stopped for dinner at a park I grabbed a few pictures of that evening. It was a perfectly sprung spring day and everyone was in a fine mood and the tacos were okay and the sky was a nice blue and we actually got to chat a little bit because the boys went to play at the park in between bites and the baby was cozy'd up on my legs because he was still small enough to fit nestled right there. Just a good solid evening. 

And then I propped the camera up on our stroller and forced a timed picture. Matt and I have an agreement that I can try timed pictures twice & I get what I get. So here is what I got ;)

Sunday, May 8, 2016


he comes in sweaty from running the street with friends. he's riding a big bike with training wheels & climbing trees unprompted. he's still very cautious trying new things, but also brave & crazy & tender too. he has a very sensitive heart when he has feelings of being left out or remorse or gets injured. he got a sliver the other day and just kept saying "I'm just scared, mama!" while he was crying. he feels in a big way, and i like that about him even when i think it will cause frustration in the future. he's getting taller all the time & is skinny as a bean pole. his freckles are amazing and his cheeks are still so smooth to the kiss. he talks so much during pretend play that we end up barely playing, but he comes up with wild scenarios that are very detailed and he has to explain everything to you, so it's very distracting when i ask him to "just play." ha. i expect too much from him some days because he's the oldest, but also he can do so much by himself that sometimes i need to push him more. not yet 5 years old, but definitely entering boyhood right before our eyes.

Mo baby @ three months

Moses is a dream boy. He sleeps and eats wonderfully, and has started to sleep longer stretches at night so we're not quite zombie status every day. He has the best concerned/sad face, but has started giving sweet smiles and even a few tiny laughs lately too. He's officially three months old this week, and still mostly sleeps in our room in his bassinet, but we've been trying out the crib in the boys' room a little bit too (can we do it!? can we have three boys in ONE bedroom and get enough sleep!? haha.)

He usually is calm and can be calmed easily (unlike Sully!), but once he gets startled he's at 100. Wailing more than crying, and he does this "mom cry" that my own mother & Matt & EZ have dubbed when he sort of says "Maaaaaaaa! Maaaaaa!" and he really only wants me to snug him real tight. He definitely wants me more than my other kids in terms of "mama's boy" and looooves to be held so tight that if he's not on the verge of smothered, he's not happy enough. He calms immediately when he's tired & ready for bed if he has a soft blanket next to his cheek, and is a very silent sleeper (another reason he's still sleeping in our room, he's not really a bother.) He lives for the solly wrap because it keeps him nice and tight against me and it's sometimes the only way to get anything done with three children around. He's started smiling at EZ and Sully and it only encourages them to kiss him even more than they already do (which is sweet & still terrifying for him.)

He looks a lot like his brothers when he's asleep, but has his own look when he's awake (although he's more EZ than Sully.) His dark blue eyes are big & awake and he's looking around more and more. He startles easy & seems to have a fear of open spaces. When we're in too large of a room or he's looking outside for too long his eyes get really wide and fear overcomes him and it seems like his world has gotten too big, and the only way to calm him down is to make it smaller by holding him against my chest tightly (and I tell him he's safe & the world is small, but I'm not sure that actually helps him - it's probably more for me.) Three months already. Just speedy speedy with this third baby, but we're all obsessed and he fits right in.